It's weird to think about the whole idea of leaving home and leaving all the normalities in your life. The fact that even if you try to hold on to your child hood so hard you know you will have to join the new society of strict adult life. No more of this waiting for dinner to be ready, because once you get your own house you will soon find out that a stove isn't a machine that cooks its own food. I don't know I guess I'm in a random thoughtful mood because I'm kind of freaking out about my first actual job? Nervous reaction in me that will soon be subdued with a pat on the shoulder or a congratulations you made it! It's hard to believe that before I was just sitting there in my room playing barbie dolls or playing dress up (oh wait i still do that... heh). I guess it's scary... the future is a scary thing... the one thing I fear in life, sure it's what you should have been expecting right after you come out of.. well ya know what i'm talking about... and that it's basically reality unless you are one of those 40 year olds who still live in your mother's basement... ew?


I guess there isn't a real big huge point to this rant... cept to let some things out that I have been thinking about. Like how when i get old and start to forget how many fingers and toes I have I will probably end up killing myself. I honestly want to live life only when i am sain... it's kind of tragic when you forget your own children or your grandchildren (what happened to my great grandma before she died). Blech future... future... future...future (ponder)...

I've been stuck in my own little world that reality finally caught up to me, and even now I'm here physically but not really mentally i guess.. if ya know what I mean? I won't try to go into it, because I don't even understand the complexity of my mind yet... I don't know... it seems like each day is one step closer to my doom of adult life...

Those are my weedbook bitches by the way.. we are one of a kind crime starting lesbian acting... wonder girls... I have no idea how we got together with all of our many different personalities... It just seems to fit. We have been through hell and back (literally... fights b/w weedbook bitches are scary the world goes through utter chaos)

Cassie:: I'm not sure about her, but she is probably one of the most blunt person you will ever meet. She has a strong personality that can't be beat... But she is also fairly sexy!!! I love her to death even though sometimes me and her don't see eye to eye... you see we got in this fight figured which in the end we both figured out we can't live with out each other.

Mallery:: the artists from the 60's aka also a major pirate, comic, anime lover? all put into one music loving sexy nerd? Me and her can always find something awkward to talk about and for some reason it always ends with it being interrupted by some awkward noise (squirrels officially sound like ducks) but either way... of course i love her! I love to tackle her even though she admits to not liking it. We have grown close this year.

Katie:: I could take up your whole time and my whole time writing a whole essay about this girl, but I guess I'll just sum it up. She is the most caring, fun loving, and emotional kind of gal. She is my bestest friend out of the whole weedbook bitches! I've known her since 6th grade.. what do you expect? We have a shit load of fond memories.. even though we both agree we don't want to repeat any of them... 7th grade (blech)... Honestly we can be the shittiest friend to each other, but in the end we both know that we will always love each other more then life itself.